2023-02-09 23:59

i’ve been aspirationally imagining myself in the status of a writer but haven’t really thought about the actual work that goes into it. it’s the ten thousand hour rule all over again, isn’t it? which is one of the reasons it’s been more than a month since the last time i’ve gathered enough courage to actually post something here. hint for future self — alcohol helps a lot.

i could’ve never imagined myself enjoying writing in any shape or form — it has always been one of the biggest struggles for me at school. i remember my mom helping me out with my assignments throughout the years, and when she didn’t — i ended up writing convoluted texts, with hypercomplicated sentences, paying more attention to sounding smart than to actually making sense. i wouldn’t be surprised if i still sound like that but that’s why it’s public — so that somebody can come up to me one day and explain to me how i’m doing it wrong.

i’m guessing everybody has at least one such thing in their life. for Merlin Mann it’s drawing, for me it’s Merlin Mann talking about writing. there was some time in my life when i thought that i should learn how to draw, or sketch, or whatever. nowadays, now i’ve convinced myself that i want to write. i have a feeling all these podcasters/writers have a bad influence on me, especially combined with my susceptability to other people’s opinion.

but how else do desires, interests, hobbies, and aspirations get hold of us if not from being inspired by others and their obsessions?

so now i’m here, writing about writing on the blog that has been an aspirational side project, justified by nothing more than me pretentiously imagining calling myself a writer in a bio somewhere on the internet.
convoluted enough for the first step? 🙃